Disenchanted

I haven't posted in a while because I have been feeling kind of in the dumps.  My insurance has denied my revision surgery and their only basis is that it hasn't been 2 years since i had my original surgery.  They don't seem to take into account that I'm not tolerating my band and because of that I have an empty band just sitting in there not doing me any good.  So, either I wait it out until June and then have surgery, or I go to Mexico (the boyfriend is in total disagreement with this) or I get a lawyer and fight the denial.  I am hoping to move out of state before June of next year, so that would affect putting the decision off.  I was hoping to start having kids by the end of next year which would also be offset because of the surgery being postponed (can't have kids for a year after surgery).  The boyfriend is totally against Mexico (though at this point I'm all for it).  I could fight with a lawyer, risk losing the money it costs to do so, because there is no guarantee they will get the decision reversed and I may end up waiting until the 2 year mark anyway.  FRUSTRATION.  So yeah... I haven't felt much like blogging.  I don't have much to say.  I'm not gaining, and I'm not losing.  I'm just staying about the same and I'm frustrated.  There.  I'm done.  Got that out.