Suffered a bit of insomnia last night. Had a belly ache that I think was induced by the nerves that I mentioned yesterday. I had wanted things to hurry up and now that they are, I had a moment of panic.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Lying is something that bothers me. I believe that people should be allowed to see the truth and make their own choices based upon it. I do not like to be lied to, and I don't really feel comfortable with lying to others. After a long talk with a friend last night, I came to the realization that I may be lying to people inadvertently by withholding my truths.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
So now that I've gotten myself mentally prepared to have the Lap-Band surgery, I've been trying to mentally prepare myself for actually being smaller. I'll see women on the street and wonder if my body will look like theirs. I try to envision myself smaller, fitter, and a 'regular' size.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
The initial "OMG, I might actually do this" is starting to wane a little. I'm sure that feeling will arise again when I get closer to my appointment with the Nurse Practitioner and Dietitian (both on the same day!). I have been doing all sorts of research.
Monday, April 18, 2011
It's a very good place to start.
I have recently made the decision to take control of the one thing in my life that I have not been able to get in control of. Ever. My weight has been the bane to my existence for as long as I can remember. I recall struggling with my weight as far back as the 6th grade. School pictures revealed to me for the first time that my weight was ballooning.