I will admit, I have been a bit lax on posting compared to usual. I have been reading other blogs and what not, but being that I was feeling pretty badly, I have slacked up a bit. I had my second fill of 1.5 on August 1st, bringing me to 4.5 mL. At first I thought, well wow, this is different...
I was full super quickly on my liquids, then soft diet. Then when I started back to solid foods, I was having a terrible time getting much down. I was getting sick and vomiting. Not PB'ing, but vomiting. I would maybe make it through 2 of 3 meals in a day without incident, and that was typically only if I had things like soup or yogurt or cheese. Finally the straw that broke the camel's back is when I projectile vomited after a few bites of well chewed meat. I decided in that moment that I was going to return to the doctor and have some fluid removed. I needed an adjustment. I should not be looking like Linda Blair in the Exorcist every time that I take a bite of solid food! So it was back to the doc I went.
I had a bit of an emotional breakdown from being too tight. I already think about this band at a crazy rate. It is on my mind quite often through the day. Any time I think of food, get hungry, make dinner plans, anything related to food... It's all about the band. So it was really emotional for me. I had skipped a friend's birthday dinner because I was so afraid to eat, and they were going to a fondue restaurant and there was sure to be an issue, and I really didn't want to ruin everyone's night by vomiting, with the consistency of fondue dinner and what not. I went to see the nurse practitioner and she felt that taking out a small bit would likely be idea. So we took out 0.5 mL. So I'm at 4.0 and couldn't be happier. I still have restriction, but I can actually eat again. Last night when I ate, there was a moment that I felt that jussssst maybe I might get stuck, but nope. The sensation passed after a couple minutes. Suddenly I felt like I had arrived at the place the I have been looking for. Restriction without pain, and tight enough to do the job. I couldn't be happier. I am currently at 252 lbs. and that means I have lost a total of 35 lbs. Still 52 lbs from Onederland, but I will take my small victories where I can get them.
Thanks to you all for the support and advice along the way. I'm feeling well and look forward to the journey being a little less stressful for a while.