I'm shrinking and so it's getting high time that I buy some new clothes. I bought this sassy number from asos...
I also bought a couple more...
and...
I'm not quite out of the plus sized section, but I'm pretty sure by the spring I will be. These dresses should hold me through the winter for work. I am trying to buy things that I can style with belts, sweaters and such as they get too big. Being that it's fall/winter, layering is expected so I'm not too worried.
So how am I doing on the journey? I have no idea! I decided to stop stepping on the scale for a while. I need to give it a break. I started all this so that I would FEEL better. Looking better is the bonus. And the number on the scale is just that... A NUMBER. I won't let it define my progress. I'm enjoying watching my clothes get saggy on me. While it's frustrating when looking for something to wear, it's kind of fun to redefine how I present myself to the world. I'm so tired of wearing jersey knit and clothes with lycra and stretch! I want to wear some nice fabrics! I deserve it. I work hard for my money and I deserve to feel good in the things that I spend that money on.
Yeah, I could blame this all on you... my readers... Not encouraging me enough, or giving me a hard enough time, etc. But in reality, I am the only one who can take the blame for slacking. And boy have I been slacking. I have had a friend staying with me for the past few weeks who is going through a major life crisis. The kind where exes and children and lawyers are involved. Things have been massively stressful for him, and as I have a tendency to get personally invested, I too have become stressed, unfocused and bigger. Not really bigger. That's an exaggeration, but I have not gotten smaller. I haven't been working out (nearly at all). I have been eating a bit poorly. I have been consuming on average, a bit more booze. And the stress had also caused my band to be soooo tight that I needed to have an unfill to be able to eat at all. And now I'm a pig. So... that being said. I need to get myself back on track. I feel as though my life has fallen off track a bit and I need to get focused on getting it together again. I am committing myself to writing here on every Monday and Friday minimum, as to keep me accountable. I will resume tracking my food intake daily. I will also be sure to get moving more, at least 2-3 times a week for starters. Wish me luck. I need to keep my head on straight and learn to cope with having a house guest in crisis without taking it all on myself as well. See you soon with positive reports! (I hope...)
