Thursday, November 3, 2011

Filler up!

It's been a hectic and stressful couple of months around my way.  Thankfully I can say it is starting to ease a bit.  A few weeks back I had gotten an unfill to ease up my band.  With the stress at home, my apparent race to keep up with the speed of others eating around me, and will my lack of chewing skill I was getting stuck left and right.  Then I would absentmindedly chug some water on top of that... No Bueno.  So an unfill to take off some of the stress while I got myself back on track.  It was useful for a while, but as time went on, I noticed that I was able to eat most anything and I found myself pushing the boundaries while stress eating or when I was looking for comfort foods.  I needed to get with the program and realize that I HAD SURGERY FOR CRIPES SAKE.  So I booked an appointment with the nurse practicioner and headed off for a fill.  We decided to put in 0.5 mL.  This is the same amount that we had taken out previously when I felt too tight while under stress.  I was on clear liquids yesterday and today onto soft foods (though I only had a protein shake and a bowl of pea soup so far). 
Basically I had abandoned myself in my journey for a while in persuit of helping a friend.  While it's good to help the people around you, I think it's important to stick to my personal commitments to myself.  THIS WAS A HUGE COMMITMENT!!!  What the heck have I been doing?  So I'm officially back on the wagon.  Go me!

5 comments:

  1. Go you!! You sound very aware and making good decisions on your own behalf and that's what it's about, right?! Hope the little fill is just right.

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  2. Go you, indeed! Self-realization is a beautiful thing.

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  3. Good for you. It is hard to always stay on track...especially if you are caught up in helping someone else. Make YOURSELF a priority!

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  4. Thanks ladies! I'm trying! And I def have restrictionnnn!

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  5. Good for you! Sometimes we help everyone around us and forget about ourselves. But you really have to take care of yourself first because if you don't, you won't me much good to everyone else.

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