Monday, May 7, 2012
Yeah... That's pretty much how I feel (and quite possibly look too!). The past couple months have been tense to say the least. Lots of good, and some bad, and some just plain old changes. I officially have a boyfriend these days! I am so lucky to have this amazingly supportive guy in my life right now. I can't ask for a better partner. We met over a year ago, kept in touch long distance for about a year, then took the leap. A GIANT leap!
He had been living on the opposite coast and we dove right in and he moved in with me. This in and of itself has posed some pretty hefty challenges. To be doing the long distance thing for a short period, then to go full throttle can be a little overwhelming. We fought. We cursed each other. We annoyed the crap out of each other. And now that the smoke is clearing and we are getting to know and respect each others quirks and differences, I think we might be actually settling into a pretty cozy life together. We have long term hopes. Dreams of babies and a family and all that good stuff. So yes, I'm in a little bit of bliss... but unfortunately that bliss is a little clouded with stress. I had to ask my roommate to move, which has caused a bit of chaos at home. I had hoped it would go smoothly, but the transition is going rather badly. I hate that it's gotten this way. It makes me feel terrible that things aren't moving easily, but I guess things in life don't always go as we hope they will, and we sometimes have to just wade through the rough time to get to the other side.
Lets talk about my band. Yeah. The reason why I am blogging here in the first place. I haven't been maneuvering things quite as well as I should. I have been stress eating. I have been comfort eating. I've been eating eating. And I've slacked on the gym. Fortunately, I haven't actually gained anything. Surprise surprise! I have maintained, which goes to show me that if I had actually been on track, I'd prolly be a bit skinnier by now! Duh. I saw my Nurse Practitioner today and he told me not to worry, that when life is good, weight loss tends to be good and that when life sucks, the loss typically reflects that and sucks too. Just as all this stress I'm going through is temporary, in time I will be back on track. I am not gaining. That's the important thing. So today I got a little bit of a fill and a kick in the pants and then a warm hug of encouragement. Starting tomorrow... gotta get my ars back in that gym! For today... it's back to a liquid diet. I can do this.