Birthday, Thanksgiving, and an Unfill

I had a fill a couple weeks ago and yes I've lost weight since, but I have been getting sick intermittently.  Like really sick.  So after much contemplation, I have gone back to the doctor for an unfill.  I was definitely in the red zone.  If I was lucky, I might get down about 1/2 cup of food without launching into hurls.  I was only really keeping down soups, over easy eggs, or anything of that consistency.  I was having episodes of heartburn and or regurgitation when I would lay down.  Night cough.  Severe discomfort.  HICCUPS!!!  So off to the doctor I went and she has loosened me up "just a hair" as she said.  I can contest, it worked!  I just had some soup and I had restriction, but no pain or vomiting.  What a relief.  So now tomorrow, I can celebrate my birthday and thanksgiving without yacking all over the place.  These are my fancy birthday party it up nails!  Whatchya think?? (ignore the busted cuticles)

GLITTER!!!!

BMI 40...

I was looking at my BMI on one of those calculator things on lapband.com.  I saw that my Body Mass Index is down from a 48 to a 40, which is still considered morbidly obese, but I am just 0.1 point away from slipping away from "Mobid Obesity" and into the plain ol' "Obese" zone.  I guess I should feel good about this, as I am one step further from being classified as one who might keel over from fatness at any moment, to now just plain ol' fat.  Ha! 
I guess we take our victories where we can find em right??  Happy hump day errybody!  It's all downhill to the weekend. 

Please Help Me Fellow Bandsters!

I'm a very sad lady today.  I got stuck on thursday morning.  Had nothing but fluids the rest of the day as I was feeling rather crummy the rest of the day.  Friday I attempted some eggs in the morning, that went ok.  I just couldn't eat much.  It was uncomfortable.  Soup for lunch, and dinner was very soft.  Still I was in the few bite category.  Late on Friday a friend had french fries so I ate a couple as I was a little hungry.  A while later I was home, had some water and went to bed...  Barely asleep...  I feel slightly unwell.  I start to get out of bed and then it begins,

Yesterday's Pics

I'm one of the least photogenic people I know.  Please forgive the 12 chins and super red face.  I'm easily shy when it comes to being photographed and it took me a lot of courage to ask my coworker to snap these.

Feelin Hot!

I went out with some girlfriends last night to a magazine event in Manhattan last night.  I hadn't planned on going out really, so my outfit was a little mork work casual and a little less night club, but I have to say, I felt cute.  This morning I got up for work and realized that I had forgotten to pick up my laundry from the laundromat.  One of the great benefits of living in NYC is that

Tights... NOT Plus Sized.

I am wearing tights today...  NOT plus sized tights.  They are tights from the ladies department in a size XL.  I don't mind that they are size XL.  Not one bit.  For the simple fact that I am able to wear some cute sweater tights under my dress that are NOT plus sized and did not cost me a fortune is a NSV for me.  I am so damned proud to be wearing these silly tights today.  You couldn't tell me a thing.  Now, if only I could find a pair of boots that would zip up all the way...  That would be a huge accomplishment.  I have 20" calves and there are few companies that make them that big, and the ones that do... well, lets just say that the boots look cheap or manish.  I'll stick to booties in the meanwhile.  Today is a good day.  :-)

Filler up!

It's been a hectic and stressful couple of months around my way.  Thankfully I can say it is starting to ease a bit.  A few weeks back I had gotten an unfill to ease up my band.  With the stress at home, my apparent race to keep up with the speed of others eating around me, and will my lack of chewing skill I was getting stuck left and right.  Then I would absentmindedly chug some water on top of that... No Bueno.  So an unfill to take off some of the stress while I got myself back on track.  It was useful for a while, but as time went on, I noticed that I was able to eat most anything and I found myself pushing the boundaries while stress eating or when I was looking for comfort foods.  I needed to get with the program and realize that I HAD SURGERY FOR CRIPES SAKE.  So I booked an appointment with the nurse practicioner and headed off for a fill.  We decided to put in 0.5 mL.  This is the same amount that we had taken out previously when I felt too tight while under stress.  I was on clear liquids yesterday and today onto soft foods (though I only had a protein shake and a bowl of pea soup so far). 
Basically I had abandoned myself in my journey for a while in persuit of helping a friend.  While it's good to help the people around you, I think it's important to stick to my personal commitments to myself.  THIS WAS A HUGE COMMITMENT!!!  What the heck have I been doing?  So I'm officially back on the wagon.  Go me!